First day back in the office so effectively first day that
counts and I realised I am not totally unhappy about being back in London or
the office which is a massive change from previous years where I was often depressed
about it and thus wrote more or whinged more, this sprout of positivity I have had
over the last year or so is really hindering my creativity, it seems I am more
creatively productive when down or angry.
The decision resolution was made by me and my
committee of 7 schizo personalities to try to cultivate a more optimistic and
positive creativity that is not necessarily fuelled by anger, depression or
lack of sex. And so this is the first instalment.
I have managed to drop the kilos that clung to my hips for
the last ten years, which gave me a massive boost in energy and libido confidence,
of course now I have a new problem, I can’t shake the boys off my hips!
DAMN! I have also dated
interviewed many candidates over the last year, none of which made it past the
2nd round, on the count of mostly shallow reasons that I won’t
mention here, also men are gross (and NO I have not turned gay).
I found being angry and full of sarcasm was funny until it
turned against me, although my writing and sense of humour flourished, my
personal life suffered visibly from this and I had to choose between being
funny or being happy, such seemingly simplistic and silly choices, but the
results have been staggering.
I am so full of positivity these days it’s sickening
(note picture above as exhibit A), I have to feign some crankiness sometimes just to
trick my mind into spurts of creativity so I am able to continue to contribute
to the ongoing dialogue on all aspects/dilemmas of the Algerian woman in
London or elsewhere.
I have also since come out of anonymity – on this more news
to come J
Until the next happy instalment, Happy New Year from me.
